I made tacos! Wish I

I made tacos! Wish I could enjoy them with my hubby! I miss him so much :(

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How do you trust after the one person you believed in breaks it??? You can't look up 2 anyone if you see all bad around you. It will NEVER be the same!

Why can't it all just be perfect. My vision of perfection was seen in him. as of now my eye sight is blurry. I want us bac. How do I start when I'm so angry and beyond hurt. Aaahh it's so complicated. My heart wants one thing but my mind tells me something else. Why is this happening?

My brain doesn't let up in hurtful thoughts. I wish it would all end. I need piece of mind so I can move forward and be happy like I know we could be. There's still so questions left floating around. So many words unsaid. I'm trying 2 be strong but realizing the walls will crumble soon. I just hope that were strong enough 2 rebuild our castle.

It could have all been

It could have all been so great. My heart still hurts and i'm trying 2 cope with my sadness.

Everything is not what It's portrayed to be /=

I feel like my limit is getting close. Time 2 start making things better for myself!!!