No time for fun anymore.. It's just ALL business. Miss the old days.

Time to..

Live and let go!!!

I'm so lost. Why can't it just all be better.

Why is EVERY1 doing them but meeee! WTF

I can expect the same thing EVERYDAY! LOL #Life

Has...

Goals, priorities, dreams. Gotta got shit together and find lost motivation. I wanna clear my mind of all the doubtful stuff and get bac to focusing on whats right and needs 2 be done. How do I do that? Where do I start? I gonna start making shit work for me!

I wish you were inlove with me like before. When we would talk 2 each other and be silly. We use 2 go everywhere 2gether and really enjoy being around one another. You use 2 make me feel like I was untouchable and on top of the world. I want those feelings bac. I wish you looked at me how you use 2 :( No judgement no doubt. Just pure love! I want my heart 2 skip beats again when you look at me. I wanna have those butterflies and be silly and nervous around you. I wanna believe in every single thing you say. And truely believe you wont hurt me. Most of all I want my partner bac and my walls down. I sometimes wish we could start over. I know everything I would do differently. I love you EDO. With all my heart forever.

Whats the relation of respect and love?

All I feel is..

unappreciated everyday! I do much.. ask 4 little. Still not enough. Nothing is perfect but I want it 2 be better. I am lonely. U don't much like u should. I have become consumed in my own world and I don't get the "friends".

Music.

Makes me feel so good @ times. Then some days I will be crying over it. I love how many emotions, memories, and thoughts come with a song. He always kept me interested in his words. It hasn't changed. Beyond the beat are meaningful words that I look for. It's what makes him amazing. I look forward to new shit!! I can pop in some old stuff and still get anxious about it! So much is unknown.. But with his words I think I get a clearer understanding. I need him.

Can't shake this feeling right now.. Trying so hard.. but.. It's not leaving quicc enough/= HELP ME.

FEELING DOWN )=

Wondering..

What is it that makes me like this?! i question a lot of thing instead of just having faith and being happy. I let shit build in my head until I'm feeling down and going crazing. I stay silent. I let things go unsaid and get mad cuz no one is a mind reader!! I have problems! But nothing I can't get through and get bac 2 were I need 2 be! I love me! I love him! I love us. FOREVER.

That made me feel stupid! I'ma stop and just be happy in love like I know I am! & he is:) SERIOUSLY.

Realizing that..

You can't control what someone does.. good or bad it's their decision. I spend so much time worrying about things that COULD BE happening. lol This makes NO SENSE. I said I trusted and I have 2 show that 2 myself.. So I can show that 2 you!

GET IT TOGETHER JAZZ..