No time for fun anymore.. It's just ALL business. Miss the old days.

Time to..

Live and let go!!!

I'm so lost. Why can't it just all be better.

Why is EVERY1 doing them but meeee! WTF

I can expect the same thing EVERYDAY! LOL #Life

Has...

Goals, priorities, dreams. Gotta got shit together and find lost motivation. I wanna clear my mind of all the doubtful stuff and get bac to focusing on whats right and needs 2 be done. How do I do that? Where do I start? I gonna start making shit work for me!

I wish you were inlove with me like before. When we would talk 2 each other and be silly. We use 2 go everywhere 2gether and really enjoy being around one another. You use 2 make me feel like I was untouchable and on top of the world. I want those feelings bac. I wish you looked at me how you use 2 :( No judgement no doubt. Just pure love! I want my heart 2 skip beats again when you look at me. I wanna have those butterflies and be silly and nervous around you. I wanna believe in every single thing you say. And truely believe you wont hurt me. Most of all I want my partner bac and my walls down. I sometimes wish we could start over. I know everything I would do differently. I love you EDO. With all my heart forever.

Whats the relation of respect and love?

All I feel is..

unappreciated everyday! I do much.. ask 4 little. Still not enough. Nothing is perfect but I want it 2 be better. I am lonely. U don't much like u should. I have become consumed in my own world and I don't get the "friends".

Music.

Makes me feel so good @ times. Then some days I will be crying over it. I love how many emotions, memories, and thoughts come with a song. He always kept me interested in his words. It hasn't changed. Beyond the beat are meaningful words that I look for. It's what makes him amazing. I look forward to new shit!! I can pop in some old stuff and still get anxious about it! So much is unknown.. But with his words I think I get a clearer understanding. I need him.

Can't shake this feeling right now.. Trying so hard.. but.. It's not leaving quicc enough/= HELP ME.

FEELING DOWN )=

Wondering..

What is it that makes me like this?! i question a lot of thing instead of just having faith and being happy. I let shit build in my head until I'm feeling down and going crazing. I stay silent. I let things go unsaid and get mad cuz no one is a mind reader!! I have problems! But nothing I can't get through and get bac 2 were I need 2 be! I love me! I love him! I love us. FOREVER.

That made me feel stupid! I'ma stop and just be happy in love like I know I am! & he is:) SERIOUSLY.

Realizing that..

You can't control what someone does.. good or bad it's their decision. I spend so much time worrying about things that COULD BE happening. lol This makes NO SENSE. I said I trusted and I have 2 show that 2 myself.. So I can show that 2 you!

GET IT TOGETHER JAZZ..

)=

The little things shouldn't go unnoticed )=

It feels good... BEYOND good...

To be in love!! I want this high forever. It's irreplaceable and can only be shared with him. My husband, my friend, my protector, my reasons for smiling!! He means the world 2 me.



Without him there's no me. Thee end!

Who I love...

From the bottom of my heart! I had 2 marry u babe!! I want u 2 be mines forever and a trillion days!! I love u and our beautiful daughter! WE'RE THE BEST!!!

Loving "US" again!

Getting 2 a place where I feel good about me.. him.. and US. I like it gotta keep up positive thoughts and communication. I still have things 2 work on. But it's better knowing he's still by my side (=

Shouldnt be..

but I am/= Questioning the past.... phhhaaaaa!! )=

I.....

Fuccin hate caring sometimes /=

/=

Double Standards

Gotta give it my all! No half stepping

My heart feels heavy. Why? I wanna be over this already! :(

I wanna kiss you... But if I do then I might MISS you babe!!
It's complicated and stupid...Got my ass squeezed by sexy cupid....
Guess he wants to play...
Wants to play
A LOVE GAME...
A LOVE GAME...

I'ma....

Do things differently and better with out asking myself why should I! I'm a good ass woman!! Regardless of what u may or may not be doing... I am GOOD!

I wish...

I could run away from my mind!! I have so many clustered thoughts )= I LOVE U BABE! NO DOUBT IN MY HEAD!!! DON'T EVER THINK DIFFERENTLY!!!

HMMMMM

The little things go unnoticed nowadays!

SIGH.

Ugh in a crappy mood:(

I only need....

HIM. MY HUSBAND!! THERE IS NOTHING ELSE LIKE OUR LOVE! WORDS DON'T DESCRIBE HOW MY BOO MAKES ME FEEL! I KNOW THIS IS RIGHT. MY SOUL CRAVES FOR HIM.. I DON'T WANNA BE WITHOUT! I LOVE U SOOO MUCH BABE!!

I'm very..

Happy! I love you babe!

Amy Winehouse says it ALL!

Amy Winehouse says it ALL!

It will be great again

It will be great again :)

What's a star when his

What's a star when his most important fan is missing!

This is bad. Real bad..

I was flying but now i'm crashing.

I'll pretend..

For now!

Females..

Should not have ruff hands or feet! Lotion that shit up!

YAAAAY

Sonics :) :) :)

I wish...

I could be more vocal about shit.

Ugh.

Still irritated :(

I like..

Driving slow sometimes! Lol I'm relaxed right now. 2day feels right.

I KNOW...

I'M NOT FUCCIN PERFECT... BUT I'M FUCCIN TRYING!!!! I SWEAR!!!! GOD.. THIS SHIT SUCCS!

Fucc...

THIS!!!!!!! UGGGHHHH SHIT SO DUMB STUPID FUCCED!

And...

The ppl who are posse 2 be here for ME are NOT!

I have...

No fuccin body! My life... My life...

Shit is messed up! :(

Mostly my fault. I took things 2 far. :( :( Where 2 get bac right? If there's even a chance 4 that!

I Hate Immature Bitches!

I'm a immature bitch @ times! Lol I'm trying REALLY REALLY hard 2 change shit I do! But when you keep making mistakes and not realizing it... There is a problem!

Sigh...

If I try 2 lie 2myself... I will end up unhappy! So do I risk my happiness or be incomplete without?! Wish it was easier.. Wish I wasn't alone )=

I Fuccin Hate....

LIARS!!!! Why why why do u do what u do???

Today feels SOOOOOO good :)

Today feels SOOOOOO good :)

IYSIS!!!

IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO DAMN PERFECT!!! SHE IS THE MOST BEAUTIFUL BABY GIRL EVER!! SHE SMILES.. SHE TALKS 2 ME.. LOOKS @ ME WITH SO MUCH LOVE!!!! I LOVE HER AND WILL ALWAYS BE THERE 2 KEEP HER HAPPY!!! I LOVE WHEN SHE TALKS 2 ME.. WE HAVE THE BEST CONNECTION EVER!! SHE LOVES HER MOMMY!!!


MOMMY&BABY ;)

2day....

Has not been the best... due 2 ALL this money I DON'T have... But I feel different about things... Still sad.. but I'm happy!!! :) I think everything will be okay!!!
I need 2 get things taken care of with all this debt.. but eventually I will have it all!!!!

Tired of lies...all the BS!!!!!

Tired of lies...all the BS!!!!!
Making things better for me and my daughter! :)

WONDERING HOW....

It got like this?! crazzy times )= So confused about hella shit!!

Today will be better!

Today will be better!

***

Atmosphere full of lies! I can't call it! Bur! Lol :) :)

Big laughs 2night! :)

Big laughs 2night! :) Went 2 sleep TOOOOO early! Now i'm up. Booooooo what 2 do!

Mommy's Baby!!

I look @ her and my whole mood changes! It's like she is saying mommy we will be fine! I love her so much!

Start using this as on

Start using this as on twitter lol! No feedbacc! It's perfect. Nobody reads this :)

I made tacos! Wish I

I made tacos! Wish I could enjoy them with my hubby! I miss him so much :(

...

How do you trust after the one person you believed in breaks it??? You can't look up 2 anyone if you see all bad around you. It will NEVER be the same!

Why can't it all just be perfect. My vision of perfection was seen in him. as of now my eye sight is blurry. I want us bac. How do I start when I'm so angry and beyond hurt. Aaahh it's so complicated. My heart wants one thing but my mind tells me something else. Why is this happening?

My brain doesn't let up in hurtful thoughts. I wish it would all end. I need piece of mind so I can move forward and be happy like I know we could be. There's still so questions left floating around. So many words unsaid. I'm trying 2 be strong but realizing the walls will crumble soon. I just hope that were strong enough 2 rebuild our castle.

It could have all been

It could have all been so great. My heart still hurts and i'm trying 2 cope with my sadness.

Everything is not what It's portrayed to be /=

I feel like my limit is getting close. Time 2 start making things better for myself!!!

In Time...

I know things WILL get better. Right now this is NOT how I imagined it to be. I miss my friend.

It's been too long :-(